Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I feel bad that I'm happy

I know that's a weird statement that "I feel bad that I'm happy".  Why?  Because I am happy my Sister In Law has left back home but almost kind of feel bad because of it.  She did help us out a lot while she was here with the kiddo and house cleaning but honestly it was really hard to have her here.  I started to feel like I was crowded all the time at home.  We have a small house and having three adults and two kids was tough. 

I was able to find a new daycare for little one, and honestly they are cheaper than what we were paying his Sister.  So really we'll be saving about $24.00 a month.  We are still paying for her cell phone and although it would be nice to get rid of it I'm not going to argue about it with the man.  That is really up to him.  He does know we are paying for it and asked about it last night but again, I'm not going to bug about the $30/month we pay.  It's not worth the fight.  Could we use that money elsewhere?  Of course, but I'm sure it's better to just pay it than deal with "drama". 

Let's talk about my weight loss or lack of weight loss.  I haven't really been doing much lately, well besides walking during the day.  I just haven't felt motivated to exercise.  I started drinking Body by Vi shakes, my friends promotes these shakes, but I'm not too enthused about drinking these.  I don't know why I can't seem to get motivated right now but it's been really hard.  I think it's been really nice to have my house back after the SIL situation that I just like having time to myself in my kitchen again and just having the house be mine again.  I know it's probably weird to be happy about not having her here anymore considering she took care of little one, cooked and cleaned.  It is just better now.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Two Weeks Post Surgery

Today is two weeks post surgery and so far I feel great.  So if you didn't already know I had a transvaginal tape surgery.  It is embarrassing to talk about but honestly I am so glad I went to see my Doctor.  If I hadn't I'd still be suffering from major incontinence issues due to coughing, sneezing, and strenuous exercise.  I was so thrilled today, I had a cough attack today and wasn't embarrassed  because of leakage.  That means the surgery worked.  I am so thankful.  I will be so happy when I can start exercising again, at least I can actually work out now with no issues. 

So yesterday was Superbowl Sunday and yes we had friends over and lots of food.  I ate somewhat a lot but I didn't over eat as I would have.  I weighed myself this morning and was still the same as I was last week.  What I did notice about last week is that I didn't track anything.  I didn't track my food, water or exercise although not that I could really do much.  I walked a few days last week but nothing major.  Today I started tracking again on Loseit.com and walked at least fifteen minutes today.  I figured even fifteen minutes is better than nothing.  I walked with a friend of mine who said that recently she went to the Doctor and found out that her bad cholesterol was really bad and her glucose or sugars were really bad.  She said she had to start doing something and asked if she could join me on my short walks.  I figured I might as well take her up on it and start out small.  Baby steps are better than no steps right.

I have to learn to not stress eat.  I tend to do that a lot lately with the SIL situation and with work.  I am hoping the SIL situation with fix itself soon cause I am working on finding new daycare for little one.  I think once we are backing to just us four in the house and no SIL it will be better.  I do love her but our house is so small and it's hard to be just us as a family.  She's not good with boundaries and I am not good with dealing with crap.  As far as work goes, I just have to learn to not let some folks bother me.  I know I can't control others so I have to learn to not let them bother me the way they do.  I also have to learn to do something productive like go for a walk instead of go for a candy bar.  I do love chocolate therapy but it's bad for me. 

One thing I am doing really well on is the debt.  So I paid off two credit cards recently leaving the credit card balance to just around $4,000.  This is great because last year I had almost $8,000 in debt.  I had to really focus on the debt and pay what I could when I could but it worked.  Every time I had extra money from bonuses or something like that I paid down the balance.  I am hoping to get the remainder paid off and then move that money I've been paying to the truck or student loan.  It feels good to not be so stressed about debt.  I am totally accountable for the debt and realize if I can't afford it, I don't buy it.  Ok we don't buy it.

That is about all I have for my update, hope you all have a great week.  I'll update again soon.